How often does it happen to me that I try to forget, and end up more recalling it. It gives me jitters to think that I have to "forget it". I try my best to forget. One minute I'm successful, the other minute I fail. This game of success and failure has made me fragile…sensitive…self-conscious. Time passed, my attempts to forget continued (continues). Things changed, and I was happy to anticipate that my circumstances and mental illness would be washed away by the passage of time. But the more the things changed, the more I didn't. It has been a long journey...from 'trying to forget' to 'trying to forget'.